urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad its just a picture-book, silly. .snap. 2008-05-12T21:23:53Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:316150 2008-05-12T21:23:53Z 2008-05-12T21:23:53Z im leaving i cant take it anymore. <br /><br />bye sam. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:315845 2008-05-01T21:26:57Z 2008-05-01T21:26:57Z <img alt="" src="http://i277.photobucket.com/albums/kk77/jessexme/chaunceyhill.jpg" /><img alt="" src="http://i277.photobucket.com/albums/kk77/jessexme/belltower_sunset.jpg" /><br />this is my new home. isnt it lovely? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:315500 2008-04-27T02:31:03Z 2008-04-27T02:31:03Z seven tomorow. I have to study all day. So im going to get on that. Laters, scout urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:315366 2008-04-27T02:31:02Z 2008-04-27T02:31:02Z it feels really good to be home. I got to see Nikki today, which made me really happy. I miss her so much when she is away. I come back to school at urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:315077 2008-04-26T01:10:26Z 2008-04-26T01:10:26Z overall tonight was a great night. I just really want my boy to come home from work and be with me. I miss him alot. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:314697 2008-04-26T01:05:16Z 2008-04-26T01:05:16Z roomate = gone <br /><br /><br />so im here alone after sels party. <br /><br />i feel good. i feel complete. and the one thing that i really want i wont have. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:314567 2008-04-25T04:18:22Z 2008-04-25T04:18:22Z i <b>am </b>the girl who will <i>never </i>be ready for a more serious relationship. no kids. no commitment. nothing.&nbsp; i'm going to get old and have to live with my cats. well, dogs really because i hate cats. eventually everything will leave me because i dont want to settle in. <br /><br />thats the real problem with me. i dont want to settle.&nbsp; the funny thing is, thats the worst of my real problems. but to alot of people here, thats a big problem.&nbsp; <br /><br />what scares me most is you want to play the soilder in the movies who goes off and has his love at home. you romanticized war. thats why i dont watch movies. and i only read books about real-life. my love for you will falter while you are away. thats how it works. if i cant see/touch/feel it, its like it was never there to me. ats a safeguard. <br /><br />like i said, no commitment for me. so when you go remember that i love you. and when you come back, remember that whatever happens (if you make this decision) was because im not a big enough person to keep promises. i cant expect you to keep them either. its just better if we both don't. <br /><br />but every morning i wake up you will still make me smile.&nbsp; and i hope we never get into this what-if situation. because even though im a bitch, i feel like given the chance i could be worse. <br /><br />forgive me for this. <br />scout. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:314119 2008-04-22T02:06:01Z 2008-04-22T02:06:01Z Just finished my second term paper.&nbsp; Be proud. i can write about scientific things and not sound like a complete dumbass. <br /><br /><br /><br />ANYWAY!!<br />this is deadweek. it is not really deadweek here. it is a pretend deadweek. <br /><br />finals next week. and time with carebear. yeah. it will be good <br /><br />oh yes, i will be sad. my ladies are going back to jersey and india, only CATS will be staying. shes off to Lowell. and yes, i do pronounce it right. <br /><br /><br />&lt;3 you and your bitchassness.<br />scout. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:313858 2008-04-19T23:49:18Z 2008-04-19T23:49:18Z <p>this is crazy.&nbsp; havent been here in a while. havent decided if i enjoy being back yet.&nbsp;<br /><br />anyway.&nbsp;<br /><br />fuck off.&nbsp;<br />scout</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:313612 2008-04-17T02:53:21Z 2008-04-17T02:53:21Z oh shit. it looks like im back. <br />guess what. little writer type has found her old home again! <br />i missed this. <br /><br />more soon<br /><br />miss, <br />scout. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:313391 2006-06-01T10:23:44Z 2006-06-01T10:23:44Z <span class='ljuser ljuser-name_parsecs_between' lj:user='parsecs_between' style='white-space: nowrap;'><a href='http://parsecs-between.livejournal.com/profile'><img src='http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /></a><a href='http://parsecs-between.livejournal.com/'><b>parsecs_between</b></a></span><br />add it fuckers. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:313208 2006-05-09T10:50:30Z 2006-05-09T10:50:30Z whatever happened to sam being your hell? why must you hate me so? nothing was ever worth it anyway.<br /><br />:::::james:::::<br />no you poo face. you may not have my boyfriend. yes you may borrow him. i cant wait till you come hang out with us again. oaky okay okay. see you soon pimp &lt;3<br /><br />:::gemma::::<br />www.livejournal.com/users/parsecs_between <br />see you there &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:312964 2006-05-03T10:55:44Z 2006-05-03T10:55:44Z im sorry you had to beat me up like that again. you cought me off guard. but i wont take it back. i told you, we had an amazing friendship that im not sorry for, but weve changed. i see no reason to talk about it. and im sorry i hurt you. <br /><br />i know i dont have much to say for myself. i have an odd group of people. two of the three main guys in my life are gay, so my life isnt getting very far. the person who could be considered my best friend should be the one peson i hate. your still in my cereal bowl too it seems.<br /><br />i wont pick up the phone again. i never wanna cry and feel shitty about my bad past. ive never admitted to being a good person, and i wont say i am now. <br />because im not. <br />im really not. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:312773 2006-04-13T02:06:54Z 2006-04-13T02:06:54Z bye bye kids... comment if you need to find me... ill tell you wheres to look. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:312556 2006-03-17T03:54:05Z 2006-03-17T03:54:05Z well. i went out with corey tonight. &lt;3 even though im grounded he talked my daddy out of it for one day. which was nice. he tooke me out to dinner (he paid) we hung out with glenda and then we listend to music for like four hours until i fell asleep and then i wet home. it was a grand night. <br /><br />tina- i will have to see you next time im ungrounded and yu are home, we will have a sleepover at my house okay? kay. i &lt;3 you. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:312203 2006-03-13T11:29:57Z 2006-03-13T11:29:57Z kids guess what?<br />yes comments are screened quit asking why. <br /><br />IM SINGLE AGAIN.<br />i did it. finally. &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:311998 2006-03-06T20:41:55Z 2006-03-06T20:41:55Z so im re doing my lj. <br />who wants to stay? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:311608 2006-03-03T03:12:13Z 2006-03-03T03:23:00Z im really tired. <br />i think i just need to not go to school tommorow. <br />but whatever.<br /><br />so alex came ans saw me at work the other night. it was nice. hes so good. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:311389 2006-02-25T14:11:06Z 2006-02-25T14:11:06Z you piss me off so bad sometimes. so bad. you knwo it too. that stunt you pulled last night. making me cry like that. son of a.... anyway. its okay now. at least you finally called to tell me where you were.im sorry i was upset. at least we didnt yell. and im sorry you felt bad for making me cry but your such a punk sometimes. and then you go and make it all better. and then you say things like you in love with me and i generally hate that. i dont know if you mean it or ot. but i guess im not supposed to know if you mean it. its like this trust thing. im working hard, but you make it ten times harder. its okay cuz i love you. <br /><br />quiestion for the ages<br />whats goin on urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:311088 2006-02-23T11:50:18Z 2006-02-23T11:50:18Z so. here it goes. i woke up at three. im an m- azing friend. no quiestions asked. had a few nightmares about the three conversation. and if that dream happened in real life i'd be a little upset. then i had a dream about band. for some reason the whole band was sitting in the front row, and the cyms were playing mello. idk why. and for some reason i had a baritone in my locker... broken at that. <br /><br />fought with james. im sure thats what two certain people would love to hear. at least they cant find me here. its okay. it was my fault, i was in a bad mood. he just wanted to give a damn and i didnt want him to.<br /><br />i didnt get all my homework done because im sick. <br /><br />the girls are easy,<br />and the drugs come cheap. <br /><br />jes. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:310789 2006-02-20T16:38:18Z 2006-02-20T16:38:18Z i really only cry on the days you drive home away from me. but you call me when you get there and allways manage to promise to be home nextweekend. and you come home again. maybe it is like you promised. like in that song you sang to me you little fucker.... god youve changed. and i still wear a wall around my heart for you, your right. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:310539 2006-02-19T15:30:15Z 2006-02-19T15:30:15Z a year ago i met an amazing boy. who was an asshole. <br /><br />this weekend i re met that amazing boy who did things i never expected of him. <br /><br />hes so wonderful. he took me dress shopping for prom. he picked out a dress for me to try on and i fell in love with it. i didnt even wanna go dress shopping.<br /><br />i can actually eat like myse;f when im with t his boy. i can wear what i wanna wear nad say waht i wanna say. no worries. <br /><br />the roadtrips with my friends down to see him are amazing. even if i have an anxiety attack and throw up everywhere. its okay. because me face first in the mud just means theres four people in the car waiting to take good care of me. i love them. this weekend was amazing. <br /><br />ugh. you have no idea how amazing unless your close to me because ive told you. god i love it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:310443 2006-02-15T23:45:07Z 2006-02-15T23:45:07Z so the bomb was just dropped, that i am going to pay for school 100% on my own. <br />yeah thats right. daddy just told me he had to pull the money or him and mom cant retire. <br /><br />i want to study returant and buisness management. <br /><br />ive gotta come up with some more fast cash, put something away so i can float better. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:310039 2006-02-10T04:30:33Z 2006-02-10T04:30:33Z for once in my life im scared<br />ive never felt quite like this before<br />all this is new emotion<br />it all cuts a little deeper<br />deep down i want you to hold my hand <br />and tell me its okay<br /><br />but i feel human for once,<br />and i just wanna stay that way. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:forkinyoursalad:309771 2006-02-09T11:51:11Z 2006-02-09T11:51:11Z im gunna vomit. <br />but i feel better than last night. <br />whats really funny is her story doesnt fit.<br />im not hurt. <br />im amazing. <br />&lt;3 you <br />jes